we never knew that time is easily flown away

i really didn't realize that today is 21st of May already!

and i am so sorry for not religiously blogging for the past few weeks.

it seem like i have no idea what to blog about and what to share.

i mean, i have a lot of things to share but the words seems cannot be express simply by pressing this little tiny keyboards as the way i'm pressing it now.

but thanks to Armstrong n Whywhy..seems both of them are the two awesome person who always drop by here! 

thank you thank you..will visit you guys later :')

well, not a lot i want to share. but i really really want to tell you guys that.

SAYA TIDAK SABAR BALIK KAMPUNG!

huu..

is it May is the bride-to-be season?

seems like this end of May i have a lot of wedding invitation to attend. 

instead of celebrating the month of Huminodun.

i will watch two soul to be tie-up together forever.

hurm tidak dapat tingu unduk. tiapa, ada facebook. haha

well i've got two cousins who will be married soon.

and i for sure will be busy cutting onions, ginger, arrange chair and bla bla bla.

hesh..kenapa la drg tidak pilih saya jadi pengapit kan? 

*sigh* 

please please 27 may. come fast! 

i want to go home so badly.

inspire me: mama, you're the greatest woman i've ever know.

when i was a child. 

i always asked myself,

why mama scold me?

why mama go to work?

why mama said we are poor?

why do i need go to school?

why can't i be friend with the boys?

why mama cried?

and as time passes by. 

i grew up to discover the answer each of it every counted days in my life.

mama scold me because she love me more than herself.

mama go to work so that she can buy me a beautiful doll and serve us a lovely dinner everyday. though she know sometimes the food may not enough for her.

mama said we are poor, so that i can learn how to be independent and know how to survive.

mama said i need to go to school so that i can learn and have a wonderful career so that i will not suffer like her. 

( i remember back then, my mama was a cleaner. she came back home late at night and said to me "nak, belajar bagus-bagus. cari kerja yang bagus-bagus. jangan jadi macam mama. mama susah, kesian kamu mama tidak dapat kasi beli buku-buku yang kau mahu." and she cried)

i listen to her and cried too. 

i really want to say that she really gave us a lot more than she think she have. 

why she cried? 

i could not think of any answers since suddenly i miss mama so much right now :'( 

to think of this Mother's Day.

i really hope that i can hug my mama tightly right now. 

but because of the distance. i can only hear her voice through the phone.

mama, i know that you know i love you soo much.

thank you mama for the guidance, love, patience.

without you, i will not be here in this world today. 

so, to all Mama's in the world: 

i love you Mama. Sinah binti Tulis. i love you! 

and to my sisters too. 

Happy Mother's Day dear Nordiana Abdullah and Roslin Dawai. 

you are the greatest mom i've ever know :)