Love at First sight.

it was daylight. when i saw her face. laughing, giggling with her friends like no one care.
there's this look in her face that make me wanna know her better. 
it makes me curious. 
who is she.
where she's from.
what she like to eat.
why she laugh so much.
when she will notice me. 
ohh this heart of mine. IS
IS falling, falling deep in this unknown hole of sweetness, palpitation through my heart. 
i am fallen. 
fallen in love with this girl i first saw at the bus stop.

that was then He, my love Fiance fall in love with me.
the time when i really didn't care about anything.
the time i can say my way up life from downward.
the time when i was realized i am not a kid anymore.
the time that i need decision because decision were the answer to my future. 
i did tell you the love story of ours from my before before post on blogs. hehe..
here

you see. i actually really don't care if my love was first sight or what. 
the only thing i care is. 
the one that will spend the rest of my time with me should be the one that understand me, be there when i need one. and accept me who i am, and accept my family too.
and i glad i found one. 

unlike Jonathan. I am the girl, the one, that first sight, the girl that stole his heart that moment. 
i feel i kinda special you know.
being the one and only :) 

teehee.

aish. suda la tu ah cerita cinta sy. geli2 pula wakaka. 
i actually wanna share some of our pre wed photo taken using my phone recently.
masi tidak sabar tunggu the original photo taken by Aviebunny! heeeee 

this photo taken from avie's camera. she recaptured it using her phone. and send it to me. :) 

i love this shot! taken from avie's cam! 

you see. this bus stop is where our story began. :) 

cant wait to see all the photo from aviebunny!!! heheheh 



Oh, she doth teach the torches to burn bright!
It seems she hangs upon the cheek of night
Like a rich jewel in an Ethiope’s ear,
Beauty too rich for use, for earth too dear.
So shows a snowy dove trooping with crows
As yonder lady o'er her fellows shows.
The measure done, I’ll watch her place of stand,
And, touching hers, make blessèd my rude hand.
Did my heart love till now? Forswear it, sight!
For I ne'er saw true beauty till this night.” 
― William Shakespeare

“As soon as I look up, his eyes click onto my face. The breath whooshes out of my body and everything freezes for a second, as though I’m looking at him through my camera lens, zoomed in all the way, the world pausing for that tiny span of time between the opening and closing of the shutter.” 
― Lauren Oliver, Delirium

till next post kawan.
hugs and kisses. 

My Adam Levine :)

my beloved version of Adam Levine :) 

His Best Friend.

Boy: I broke up with her.

His Best Friend: What happened?

Boy: She’s just too much for me.

His Best Friend: What makes you say that? What did she do wrong?

Boy: Well, for one.. She only cared about her appearance. Always had to look good, always took forever to get dressed! So insecure..

His Best Friend: So, you broke her heart because she wanted to keep your eyes locked on her? She wanted you to see that you have the prettiest girl under your sleeve and not think otherwise? I see..

Boy: Oh.. Well.. She’d often call me or text me asking where I am, who I’m with, telling me not to smoke, not to drink. She’s so clingy!

His Best Friend: So, you broke her heart because she cares about your well being? Because she cares about you a lot? And her greatest fear is losing you. I see..

Boy: But.. Uhh.. Well, she’d always cry when I say something slightly mean. She can’t handle anything. She’s a crybaby!

His Best Friend: So, you broke her heart because she has feelings? And because she just wanted to hear you say you love her? I see..

Boy: I.. Well! You know, she’d get jealous easily. I could barely talk to other girls! She’s so annoying! I had to hide it from her so she wouldn’t bitch about it.

His Best Friend: So, you broke her heart because she just wanted you to commit to her? She thought you were faithful, but you lied so she could find out later and hurt even more? She just wanted the guy she loves the most to love only her. I see..

Boy: Well, she..

His Best Friend: You broke up with her because she’s good for you? She just wanted the best for you? She’s broken now because you were selfish. Are you proud?

Boy: I broke her heart.. Because I couldn’t see what was happening.. What happened to me?

His Best Friend: You lost the girl that loved you like no one else could. You see? You didn’t want her when all she ever wanted was you. THAT’S what happened.

Think about it, when she’s too much for you.. She just wants the best for you. Because to her YOU’RE the best. If you don’t like something, talk to her about it. You mean so much to her. Don’t just give up. Don’t just leave because you want the easy way out. 

Boys, always find some excuses for themselves and not trying to even notice what is wrong with their own selves. so called EGO! 

135 and still counting.

135 followers.

what a great number to view.

is it because my post in my blog are interesting or is it because i am that girl who 'was' actively drop by to others blog and hit follow/join and without hesitation asked that person to follow me back ASAP?

whatever it is. i was happy the way i was before. crazy and desperate for increasing the number.

not to mention..am squeezing the brain to pour out words to share.

nevertheless, today i wanna share some trip of me with HIM to Langkawi island last June.

late post of it so sorry.

day 1: arrival via boat aka ferry. straight for the car rental site and off we go to Pantai Cenang..weeheee..check in and then off we go again for the beautiful scenery of Langkawi Island at Langkawi Skybridge. round merry round.

whoring with nicole.

putting those P stands for PALUI means that PALUI person are driving this car. haha

enjoying the view at Oriental Village. 

taken by couple tourist from unknown land who kindly help us capture our photo which didn't come out so good. (there were awkwardness inside the gondola since both the tourist had  quick glance to both of us with suspicious look. i think maybe because i'm cute :D ) 

notice my hair swoosh by the freezy breezy wind which makes me wittily makes poses below

iklan rejoice konon! heh.

lovin this picta :)

awww...

feels like oversea :D

day 2: woke up late makes us late for the island hoping trip. but thank God there were two trips a day. so we manage to go for island hoping at 2 in the evening. 

alarm buzzing fail makes us late for the island hoping at 9am. so, after breakfast..we had our walk at those white sand Pantai Cenang. hot-sun-looking-face.

checking out white chicks on their bikini's sunbathing for tanned looking suave body with books on their hand. i was hoping that i could join them and had a blast gossip about last night partay. haha

taken with love by me :)

arrival at the Dayang Bunting Island at 2++ pm :)

chubby face.

monkeys everywhere hoping for a food to be offered. 

Pulau Beras Basah. i didn't see any wet rice here though.

when it comes to taking pictures..i think me captured more better with the angle and so on..hahaha kalah jonathan. (except he was more pro with adjusting the exposure bla bla bla) 

monkey rope..uhh uhh ahh ahh..scratch there scratch here. i am monkey d.luffy.

pukulan kidal.

day 3: last day :( jalan-jalan at Pekan Kuah. bought pretty a lot of very murah chocolate and stuff so on. and we had our eagle captured. 

weeee...

so sad there's no one to help us take picture so we set timer and self captured. there was this picture we had which we want to jump..but the timer are not set well which caught last while we on land time. sob sob. but funny though haha.

candid.

that's it. there were lot of picture. but then its gonna take you long time to scroll down those mouse till you see the end of my post. so this was it. my last but not least trip with sinchan.

hoping for another trip in the future. finger crossed. 

hugs n kisses. 

inspire me: mama, you're the greatest woman i've ever know.

when i was a child. 

i always asked myself,

why mama scold me?

why mama go to work?

why mama said we are poor?

why do i need go to school?

why can't i be friend with the boys?

why mama cried?

and as time passes by. 

i grew up to discover the answer each of it every counted days in my life.

mama scold me because she love me more than herself.

mama go to work so that she can buy me a beautiful doll and serve us a lovely dinner everyday. though she know sometimes the food may not enough for her.

mama said we are poor, so that i can learn how to be independent and know how to survive.

mama said i need to go to school so that i can learn and have a wonderful career so that i will not suffer like her. 

( i remember back then, my mama was a cleaner. she came back home late at night and said to me "nak, belajar bagus-bagus. cari kerja yang bagus-bagus. jangan jadi macam mama. mama susah, kesian kamu mama tidak dapat kasi beli buku-buku yang kau mahu." and she cried)

i listen to her and cried too. 

i really want to say that she really gave us a lot more than she think she have. 

why she cried? 

i could not think of any answers since suddenly i miss mama so much right now :'( 

to think of this Mother's Day.

i really hope that i can hug my mama tightly right now. 

but because of the distance. i can only hear her voice through the phone.

mama, i know that you know i love you soo much.

thank you mama for the guidance, love, patience.

without you, i will not be here in this world today. 

so, to all Mama's in the world: 

i love you Mama. Sinah binti Tulis. i love you! 

and to my sisters too. 

Happy Mother's Day dear Nordiana Abdullah and Roslin Dawai. 

you are the greatest mom i've ever know :) 

Happy birthday Jonathan~*

since it his birthday.

i will be the loyal wife to be, 

which i will do all the housework.

 p/s: saya tidak berjaya kasi sama tu saiz :(


don't worry Jonathan.
you will be the king of the day.
yeah~!

happy yappy birthday! :) 
love u soo much!

hello march!

it is march~ yes yes...march is here. yipppeeeee

do u remember how i wish march to step forward on my last LINK.
well yes! wait no more..march is here.
can't wait to celebrate mr.shinchan birthday(though we are far far away to each other)
and can't wait also for PIJI's new bag carrier..hehehe 
since march is here..i beg for my allowances to come fast now! hahaha


elaun elaun..cepat mai! hehe


will be updating 30days blog challenge after this..


HAPPY MARCH everyone!! hehe

shy boy and naughty girl

as I promise before, i will tell you how me and Jonathan met.

mine side of story:

I was in 1st semester studying at Polytechnic KK, and there was a group of christian HOPE church organize a Welcoming Party for the newly fresh student.

the program was held on saturday evening i guess at the Luyang church (if i was not mistaken, lupa-lupa suda bha)

me together with some of my classmate and room mate Sanderila who attend the party were split into groups.

i was in "senyum" group. bha faham-faham la kalo siapa yg kenal saya..mmg tidak pandai diam.

after awhile in the group with some icebreaking games, i suddenly notice macam ada org sedang tingu-tingu saya. (eseseh..perasan kan)

the man who sneakingly looking at me is (at first impression) kind of cute la, good looking boy.

he is wearing a pink taris-taris long sleeve shirt matched with jeans.

there was this game which memorize the members group name

and i know from the icebreaking games his name is Jonathan.

one of my group member were asked by the MCs who is this person name and pointed at Jonathan.

and me who tidak tau malu punya perempuan give her a hint and say in sepoi-sepoi bahasa: nama dia jonathannn...psstt..nama dia joooo naaa thhaaaannnn...

and he looking at me like shy-shy face and look down. (seems like he is happy that i know his name)

there's not much interacting between us since only curi-curi pandang saja. *bluff*

his side of story:

i was together with some friends at the bus stop while waiting for the bus to go to Hope Church and i notice one girl who laugh very loud with her friends at the corner of the bus stop.

she is so cute.

i like to see her smile. she looks like a naughty hyperactive girl who can't control her laugh. from that moment i am eager to know more about her. there is charm that caught me to her.

thankfully we are together in a group. i want to ask her phone number but can't find the dare to ask her. 

i was scared that she might be taken. 

end of story on how we first met :)


to Jonathan..

happy 3rd anniversary. thank you for all the love that u gave. you know i love you. here song for you :)

lyrics:
Share my life, take me for what I am
Coz I'll never change all my colors for you
Take my love, I'll never ask for too much
Just all that you are and everything that you do

I don't really need to look very much further
I don't want to have to go where you don't follow
I won't hold it back again, this passion inside
Can't run from myself
There's nowhere to hide


Well,don't make me close one more door
I don't wanna hurt anymore
Stay in my arms if you dare
Or must I imagine you there
Don't walk away from me...
I have nothing, nothing, nothing
If I don't have you, you, you, you, you, you...

You see through, right to the heart of me
You break down my walls with the strength of your love mmmmm...
I never knew love like I've known it with you
Will a memory survive, one I can hold on to

I don't really need to look very much further
I don't want to have to go where you don't follow
I won't hold it back again, this passion inside
I Can't run from myself
There's nowhere to hide
Your love I'll remember, forever

Don't make me close one more door
I don't wanna hurt anymore
Stay in my arms if you dare
Or must I imagine you there
Don't walk away from me...
I have nothing, nothing, nothing...

Well,don't make me close one more door
I don't wanna hurt anymore
Stay in my arms if you dare
Or must I imagine you there
Don't walk away from me no...
Don't walk away from me
Don't you dare walk away from me
I have nothing, nothing, nothing
If I don't have you, you
ooohhh,ooooh
if i don't have you,oohh
 

from sandakan with love

i received a mystery box today which Jonathan already mention it :) 
it might too late for exactly Vday..but who cares? everyday is Vday for me..eseseh.
so guess what i get for my Vday? hahahaha...
although for u might say it is just an ordinary gift.
but for me..it means a lot and super extraordinary!
here..Enjoy ~ LOL hehe :)

#1

#2

#3

#4

#5

#6

 #1: beauty singlet in that lil pic and in this pic i am wearing it hehe..he said..i should wear this and think of him since my hostel is everyday summer day haha.

#2: what Vday without Chocolate..and that Chocolate means nothing if its not BLACK FOREST! 

#3: kata-kata semangat haha. 

#4: and a plastic rose hahaha

#5: that's it..I'm super duper happy!! 

#6: dear Jonathan, i promise i will be your little princess from now on..and be your queen later on :) hahahahaha

from jonathan with love :)

Jonathan msg: Honey, will you marry me? 

and off course what else could I say?

me: Yes I Do Jonathan.

and he replied:

YEAH!!

.......

i'm thinking..he already asked this question before and he never finds the word tired about this thing.
and i tell you what..me too never get tired in all these things. instead, i am excited to marry him :)


actually, i want to share this Vday today about how both of us met.
back in those days where love at the first sight i guess? haha
but never mind i will share it next time okay?? *pinky promise*


so people, 
in this beautiful day.
let us love to each other, not to both human o triple human but also to all things surround us.



HAPPY VALENTINE DAY!

especially for you.

by Special request from mi corazon.
i added music on my blog.
i love this song so much.
i even make this song as my ringtone if he call me. :)
so, to you..especially for you who reading this blog..enjoy and do love this song :) 
lagi-lagi, now Valentine Day is around the corner..
jadi tidak salah if kita Jiwang-jiwang kan... LOL

i'm in the mood for Valentine!!!

see my kisses?
no? what? 

seriously?

oh..its ok..if you couldn't see it that's because that one is for Jonathan :)

my heart swaying.
my lips itchy.
my both hand trembling.
just because i fall in love again.
 

thanks to Marshey for this capture :)

i don't mind if i post this too early..i'm just too excited.
since me and Jonathan are that sooo far far away.
this is how i express my feeling towards him.
and i really wish we could both be together on Valentine..but nevermind.

i wish all of you had your idea for Valentine.
just please don't go wild and don't go buat anak.


p/s: Jonathan..i love you and always will..ada coklat ka?hehheheheh 

p/ss: nine days to go for Valentine!!